this is my life.

mood: calm

merry xmas dear frens :)

xmas is a time of light, celebration of life, giving and sharing. amidst the giltzy merry making and gorgeous people; there will also be exchanges of lovely presents. this xmas, three presents were etched deeply in my heart. and i'm now, going to share them with u.

the gift of kinship - i'm glad to be able to spend some time with my family this yr. tho it was kind of a simple and pre-xmas outing. it was good for pam n i to let our dear parents know tt they still have a place in our lives. a simple outing to catch avatar and light dinner did well for us all. it can be pretty easy to get so caught up with life tt one cld easily neglect the poor old parents whom had many a times made much sacrifice for us. i am looking forward to dinner with them tmr evening. bought pam a cuddly winnie e pooh piglet cushion tt she can use as a back padding at work.

the gift of friendship - as our lifestyle n social climate evolve, frens cld almost be like family to many. one cld only make this statement when he has experienced the no-conditions-attached frenship, generosity, advise, concern and troubles tt his frens have gone thru to help u on with ur life. i am lucky to be bestowed with such at different point in life, by few frens of mine. u guys know who u r and i've really thkful to have u all in my life.

the gift of love - love is strong, yet cld be a vulnerable thing. esp with some couples, the journey is especially arduous. i have two friends who share their true n compelling experience abt them n their life partners. in both cases they are pretty similar. the female lawyer has dated her bf for almost 12 yrs and he's been diagnosed with brain tumour. for the last 7 yrs, she stood by him and she is prepared to stand by her man even after he passes away. at her future husband's wish; they will be due to get married next jan. he wants her to have legal right to his assets and get on with life. she on the other hand have no wish for any assets. all she wants for xmas is a miracle for him and if not, for his pain to be lessened. e love she has for him is enough to fill the lonely yrs ahead without him being there for her physically. the other story is abt the corporate high flier who stood by his partner for the past 8 yrs after the diagnosis of colon cancer. the commitment to his partner is just as strong, intense and lasting as the female lawyer for her husband to be. such love are hard to find and its all the more rare when its that sustainable for individuals like them to remain so faithful to the one they sleep next to. we're not just talking abt emotional n physical constrains; but by the nature of the adversity; financial n mental as well. in other contexts, it cld be difference in educational, income levels, social status, long distance r/s or studies etc. many are willing to receive, but how many are willing to give? instead of asking "how suitable is she for me", why not "how suitable am i for her"? back to the two couples, they needed no mundane marital agreement or ceremony to bind mind, body and soul. truly this is wat i call - unconditional love.

life's been kind to me. i've been bestowed with the gift of kinship and friendship.
as for the third gift, i know there is someone out there to mutually shower me with it :)

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Posted at 12:47 pm | Link | Leave a comment | Add to Memories | Tell a Friend

mood: touched

its getting far n few that one will ever receive greeting cards these days. i'm not talking about obligatory xmas, birthday or new yr cards from your credit card company, business partners or insurance agent. a well thought after, meticulously written and mailed card from someone who seals their best wishes for u.

i am never a card person. u can practically count the number of cards which i've sent out in my lifetime. its just not in me. my best fren dennis used to make really beautiful n creative cards for us. but its just not part of his lifestyle now. haha. i keep my best wishes for ple whom i care n value; spoken, unspoken. most of the time it shows as an sms, telephone call or thru some online media. i guess it's the way of my life and it's the same with many people out there. perhaps its also why i, as much as possible organize little gatherings and cook for my friends especially as a way to stay in touch other than a blog or a fb profile and not taking a friendship (even kinship) for granted.

as i opened my mailbox this morning. many xmas cards were in. one card touched me most. its from a uni fren of mine, liptong. i'm sure he has a unique message for every recipient of his cards and it makes it all the more endearing by etching a special moment he's spent in his life w someone he calls - a friend. i wld like to share a tiny bit of lippie's card to me. he said,

"best-est time spent in the treatment room with you... *laughing*" :D

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Posted at 11:49 am | Link | Leave a comment | 8 comments | Add to Memories | Tell a Friend

mood: amused

being on a high protein, low fat, low carb, low sodium diet didnt seem to work very well for me. :p haha well, i'm just trying out to see if such a dietary pattern has actually any substantial effect on my flabs. the good news is... IT IS NOT HELPFUL AT ALL!! :O

did my body composition analysis last week. i'm happy to say tt by weight, protein mass and fitness score went up. BUT!!! my body fat% went up to 7%!! how strange n frightening is tt! in other words.. i shd just eat anything!! ANYTHING!! and remember tt i used to say tt desserts make me slim? i think its really true for me. i have no sweet tooth, but i think i shd just do less of those calorie and fat counting. eat all and anything i like!

chicken in a biscuit, anyone? ^^

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Posted at 02:26 pm | Link | Leave a comment | 13 comments | Add to Memories | Tell a Friend